Guys

Pretty much I've decided that guys are some of the most retarded thing ever.
I like guys that I consider to be super manly. I like the tall dark and handsome football players with a great personality. That make me feel free to be crazy as whatever. I like the guys that think differently than your average high school jerk, and if I get a crush on a guy because I think he's "different" in the way he thinks than the other guys, I'll keep liking that guy till he proves me wrong.
OR
I don't like guys that act like girls at all. The ones that are all intent to hear the latest gossip. Or the ones that spread rumours and hear stories. I don't like it when is all intent on figuring stuff out that doesn't need to be figured out, and if it does it can't be rushed.
ALSO
I hate the assholes. The ones that I can easily compare to the good guys. And I'll be like thats why i like that good guy. Cuz he's better than the rest. I hate those that cruelly do stuff to people just because they're unpopular or they don't like them.

Unfortunately
The guys that like me. Aren't for me at all.
The guys that I like.
Usually have bigger fish to fry.

depressing posts are fun.,

I Want

I want.
I want a Catholic guy that is taller than me. That is buff, that has a 6 pack. Who goes to church. Who prays charismatically. He has dark hair, and dark eyes. He loves sports as much as I do. He is smarter than me. He will spontaneously spoil me. He will do retarded romantic stuff. He will do ALL of the guy things like opening doors, ordering for me, walking on the street side. Pulling out chairs and telling me i'm gorgeous. We'll hold hands. He'll take me to the movies and he'll put his arm around me. He will give the best hugs. He won't pressure me. He will like camping. He'll take me fishing. He will sweep me off my feet. He'll call. He'll send my flowers. He'll listen to me when I don't make sense. He'll call me when he does something mildly accomplishing. We'll go to the mall and just hang out. He'll want a big family. We'll talk about everything and anything. He'll be my best friend. I want a guy...

hmmmm

It's been a while since I've said anything here.
I can't seem to get in the right mode in basketball. I'm not rough enough but I still foul out. Ugh. Thank God Jackson was crappy. I fouled out with 4 minutes to go. 4 Minutes!!! that is 1/8 of the game. I missed layups. I made turnovers. What happened. I need to refocus. AP government is going to actually involve work. I suppose that is why they call it AP. Oh well good wake up call for me. I need to get an A in there to raise my GPA to a 4.0. I really like that class. I don't like most of the people in it. They ask questions like what is Congress? Silly things that even if they don't know they should know enough to figure it out, or that they should know and find it out a different time. AP class. I know I'm a bitch. Sorry. I should be doing my homework for that class now. But oh well. I have a B in Chemistry and a F in Web Design. Those will change soon enough. I have everything done, I just needed to recover from missing a day in Chemistry. Yup.
I've started gettting involved in my class. It's helpful that basketball doesn't start until 4. But there's this person that really likes me. That goes too. Its kind of funny. Guys can't like me because I'll take advantage of them. So bad. Not dirty. But seriously the fact that you do anything I ask of you makes it pretty obvious you're in love. Man Up.
I should do this at different times. When I'm less angry.
So I'm going to Hallway decorating work at Ulrich's this saturday. Should be pretty awkward. Especially since...yeah and also because I'll be the only non artistic girl there. I'll tell Mrs. Ulrich to pretend that I'm a boy, and give me those jobs. Lol.
Jodi comment if you read this.
You're one of my favorite people :)))
We never see each other and thats a huge problem
huuuuuuuuuuuuuuugeee
Maybe you should try coming to my school
that would be fun. No Mrs. G at Eastern..

Basketball n stuff

I don't know why I love basketball so much. Right now all it does is stress me out. I am utterly and ridiculously lazy. So I play basketball, and I run on the cross counry team. How does that work. I guess I like running. I just hate walking. If I could run everywhere without looking retarded, I would do it. I don't like transporting. I don't like the trip. I like the final destination. I don't like working hard. So why do I like running? Scratch that I love working hard. The tough part is motivating myself to work hard. I should work on self motivation. I like learning. But I don't like wokrign. I guess what I like is the feeling of knowing i worked hard on something and feeling the payback. Ex-scoring well on a test i worked my butt of for. or pulling off a sweet move in a basketball game. I love life. I just don't like dead-lines. I want to work on my own pace. But I can't I can't live in my own world. I have to be in the real one. Where people get sick. Where you have to live up to peoples expectation. where inorder to get anywhere, you have to be perfect. I can't make mistakes now. I did that freshman year. That is what freshman year is for. Making mistakes. If only I could learn from them. If only I could learn.

1-procrastination doesn't help, do it now so you don't have to worry
2- never overestimate yourself, pride comes before a fall
3- don't talk about people, would you like it if someone talked about you
4- don't get distracted, don't talk back. be yourself... its cliche but its the truth( another cliche) if you do something out of character, people know and they will get you for it. they see inside of you c'mon now